I was raised mostly by my Methodist grandparents. My grandmother made sure I followed the same faith. For the first 15 years of my life, I was pretty devout… but in my own way. She’d always tell me to read the Bible, and so I did. I read different versions of it, each one full of notes and highlighted scriptures. Simple faith was never enough for me. I couldn’t just believe something blindly. I wanted to know the origins of my belief system. I wanted to be as true to it as possible. I was basically a young theologist. 

As I continued my studies, though, I started having some big questions… questions that are typically discouraged. I started asking WHY. Of course, the response I’d often get is “because the Bible says so.” You can’t prove a claim by appealing to the source that’s making it. That’s fallacious. That kind of thinking was very frustrating. As a child, it was easier to just believe what I was told, but as I got older my brain started developing. The desire for truth was growing stronger.

I wasn’t going to get any answers from my family or from anyone at church, so I started venturing out of that box. I still had a lot of fear in me from all that indoctrination and being told anything that wasn’t Christian was of the Devil. I faced that fear, though, and kept going. At first, I looked into other “Christian” sects to see how they interpreted things. I had friends who went to Kingdom Hall, so I got a lot of Jehovah’s Witnesses literature. It was an interesting take. They pointed out all the paganism within Christianity which was eye-opening. Their solution, though, was just to wipe it from the Jesus story entirely. I thought that was weird. I had studied some occult ideas during this time, but from a Christian perspective. I wasn’t trying to understand it with an open mind, though, but to know what to look for and expose it. My first introduction to the dark occult was through Texe Marrs' book "Ravaged By The New Age." After reading that, I wanted to find out more. I wanted to do what Texe was doing.

So, where did I go from there? One day, when I was 16, I went with my grandmother to visit a friend across town. Down the road from her house was a metaphysical bookstore called Gateways. Since I was led to believe anything pagan was “of the devil,” I kind of went in undercover, pretending to be interested. One of the shop owners gave me a book by Scott Cunningham called “The Truth About Witchcraft Today.” I accepted the gift, went outside to sit down, and began reading it. It wasn’t at all what I expected. I felt like all the “spiritual armor” I went into that store with just melted away. I had to know more. So, I spent a lot of time at that store, getting to know people, reading other books, immersing myself in this magical, nature-centric philosophy. I felt more at home with it than I ever did Christianity.

Then it happened… that terrifying decision… to abandon my religion. I had never felt more free in that moment. There was a time when that fear ramped up and I tried to be Christian again, but it didn’t last long. My inquiring mind kept growing, and after being out of that religion for about a year it was easier to see through it. I then embraced the witchy path fully. But even that had to be abandoned. It was still too religion-y for me. I wanted to detach from religion completely… or what I considered religion.

Around the age of 18, I was on my way to visit my girlfriend. I was in the area, and she wasn’t ready for me to show up yet, so I decided to stop at Barnes & Noble. At this point in my life, I wasn’t clinging to any dogmatic notions. I was completely open to possibility. I think I was quite pantheistic at the time, seeing “God” as something that permeates all things rather than being some lofty purveyor of judgment. So, I asked in my mind, “please direct me to something that validates these thoughts,” or something like that. I walk through the New Age section and one book catches my eye. A plain white book with silvery, iridescent lettering that said KRYON – Book I: The End Times. I picked it up, opened it somewhere in the middle, and there it was.

“Metaphysical people believe that each person is born into the world as a spiritual-based human being with the total power of God within, just waiting to be used through spiritual understanding. They also feel that each person is responsible for his own life and his own power. Turning your life over to God is not to lose control, but to take control, using the teachings of Jesus (and others) as a guide, to give you the power that was yours all along. Jesus didn't come to make us sheep. He came to give instructions on how to awaken the shepherd in each of us! This is called "taking your power."

The entire book not only gave me the spiritual affirmation I was seeking, but satisfied my left brain, as well. That isn’t to say everything in it is true. There are some obvious falsities, misleading notions, and plenty of New Age-y lingo, but it does contain some profound and unique ideas. I recommend it. Find the good stuff, and toss the rest. I actually followed the KRYON work for years, and aided Lee Carroll (the man who "channels" KRYON) in some live channeling events. But again, I eventually felt stagnate and had to move on.

For a long time, I had immense disdain for Christianity. I couldn’t stand the hypocrisy, the ignorance, the fear-mongering, and the absurdity of some of the beliefs that I struggled with even as a believer. I didn’t want to examine it anymore than I already had.

So, after my journey thus far, I started looking at more occult traditions. I bought books by Manly P. Hall, Dion Fortune, Eliphas Levi, and Aleister Crowley. I got into the works of Jordan Maxwell, David Icke and Michael Tsarion, as well. The spiritual knowledge was there and mostly divorced from religiosity. It was high-minded and intellectual, but also enlightened. This, I thought, was the balance point. This is where I learned about Cosmic Law (or what we typically call Natural Law). Not so much from Icke or Mtsar, but from the others. I knew I had a purpose to find and share truth since I was a kid, but this is where that purpose was solidified.

This is also where I started struggling more socially. My relationships failed one after the other. My sense of self was a mess, and I fell way off course. I stopped reading anything on the occult or spirituality except for the works of Crowley. I had friends who were Thelemites. One was Libertarian, but the rest were very Left-leaning OTO members. I had no interest in the OTO, though. I felt they took the writings of Crowley in a more hedonistic way, not understanding any of the allegory or deeper lessons.

Then, years later, the COVID scamdemic happened, and I was not seeing eye-to-eye with anyone. So much for the Law of Liberty – they tossed that out the window and quickly put their masks on. I refused. That whole situation re-awakened me and got me back on course.

As someone who had been following conspiracies for a while – and the occult – I was aware of Mark Passio’s work some time before that event. I think it was his presentation on Thelema that hooked me. And then I saw the Natural Law presentation which blew me away. I hadn’t seen anyone else talk about it publicly and really break it all down. No one has ever given me the figurative kick in the butt to teach any of this knowledge, either. I was absorbing so much, and not really fulfilling the second part of my purpose.

Everything I’ve said here has taken place over 30 years. It took me that long to finally start taking action. I think it was 2021 when I made my website, putting everything in text, making info graphics, etc. I even made my own versions of some of Mark’s presentations just in case I had an opportunity to show someone (because I knew they wouldn’t hear it from his particular style). Then recently, I get an email from Mark inviting me onto The One Great Work Network. Being on here wasn't something I ever expected, but I’m honored to be here and I hope I can contribute something worthy. I’d love to collaborate with anyone on any project.

Making a unique presentation is a challenge, though. So many people here (on this OGWN) have done masterful work covering this knowledge that I don’t know what else to say without being repetitive. I did finally make one, though, called Original Sin, and I intend to make more… I just don’t know on what. I also struggle with conveying things through speech due to poor recall. I can sit here and write with finesse and coherence, but stream-of-consciousness talking is an issue. If there’s a fix for that, I’m listening. I want to better myself in every way, and I hope everyone here will help me in that pursuit. I have to do more than what I've already done.

Anyway… that’s my journey, more or less. I’m sure a lot more happened that I didn’t mention like specific discoveries, life issues and career choices, so feel free to ask me anything. All that matters now is this Work – doing what I can with what I have, and striving to improve. And honestly, I don’t want to do it alone… but I will if I have to.