One of the ways the body naturally releases trauma is by shaking. The shaking allows the trauma to be processed and let go so it doesn't remain in the body causing various imbalances. You'll see animals do this if they have an encounter that is life threatening. Humans, unfortunately, need to be reminded how to do this. The body will shake if we let it - but some folks need a movement to prepare and open up the system so it can let go.
My body automatically started this process during my Kundalini Awakening. I didn't know anything about Somatic Experiencing or Traumatic Release Exercises when it started. My entire system did a lot of strange things on its own and I just went with it. Since a KA is all about purification, I knew it was letting old stuff go in one way or another. I'd find myself in what felt like convulsions pretty regularly. I know it sounds strange, but it was always relieving - yet quite odd. I knew it was bringing me closer to healing.
I eventually found out why I experienced relief when I learned about Somatic Experiencing. There are various ways the body can discharge trauma, but the shaking is a major one.
Fast forward several years. This very very rarely happens these days. But, over the last few days, I have felt a good deal of pain around sexuality and my suppression of it. This unfortunately isn't that uncommon for women, especially if sexual trauma has taken place and hasn't been fully released (also not uncommon). I have done A LOT of work around this using various modalities. I've certainly chipped away at it quite a bit over the years, but....
Last night, I found myself sobbing as I shared with with my husband, Chuck, what was going on for me. I knew that some of what I was feeling was mine and that some was my ancestors. These feelings around sexuality and the pain I've carried all these years were surfacing. He invited me to lay with him on the couch and hold me. As I laid there knowing I was safe, I felt my body want to shake for the first time in maybe a year.
While various parts of my body did shake, the vast majority of shaking came from my hips/pelvis.
I knew exactly what was going on. My system was releasing more trauma energy that hadn't yet made its way out. I felt that my relationship with Chuck was helping to rewire me as well - as I have ALWAYS felt safe and completely honored and respected by him.Within a couple minutes of shaking, I zonked out. (I do not fall asleep if I'm not in bed....UNLESS, I have had a big healing of some sort...in which case, I'll pass out immediately).
I got up to get ready for bed and stopped in the bathroom to relieve myself. My period had just started, and it was earlier than I'd expected. Yet, not at all surprising. My body had received the signal that it was time to release, especially from the reproductive area, and so it began. While my energy body was releasing, so too was my womb.
When I laid down to sleep a few moments later, I had a good deal of energetic release taking place...or as I call it "energetic weirdsies". But I was glad. I knew that the shaking was helping me break free.
As women, especially us sensitive healer women - we are cleansing and purging for many right now. I know some of what I'm clearing is my own, but much of it is not. Whether it's from our ancestors or even other women on the planet right now who don't have the capacity or willingness to do it themselves.
A LOT is happening through those of us who are on this path. Please keep this in mind and be extra gentle with yourself. I know it can feel like a lot, but what a beautiful gift we are able to give in helping ourselves and others become more liberated.